The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle vs Aspiemike's mind (Part 1)

The first few pages on the Power of Now.  I feel I have been told that thinking too much is a disease.  Therefore I should feel that Aspergers itself is a disease. The other part of me feels that it's part of who I am.  

Aspergers in its whole is high intelligence acquired by raising your knowledge of subjects that interest the individual that has Aspergers.  The desire to increase your intelligence may cause others to feel that you are arrogant, rude and disrespectful of others feelings.  The desire for intelligence causes one to isolate themselves rather than to try and seek out connections with other human beings.  Funny thing is I currently feel no desire to become more intelligent. What I feel compelled to do is become more adaptable.

Happiness can manifest itself in isolation, but needs to be felt through human interaction.  This is a feeling that everyone strives for.  I can’t speak on behalf of everyone, but this thought/feeling may hold some truth to it. 

While intelligence turns on the women I have met at first, it feels very disturbing to them when your mind can't be turned off.  Everyone just wants to be felt, especially the women I have met.  I am starting to see why I failed in many attempts to form friendships and possibly establish relationships with women.  The Aspie male truly wants to be felt, but his mind is not letting this happen.  Everyone else can see this about the Aspie male, but the Aspie male’s mind is creating too much of a conflict within himself.  The Aspie mind then tries to make this conflict within his mind and turn it into a conflict with the people they are with.  The mind creates a self-fulfilling prophecy and causes a path of self-destruction.  This itself was the disease. 

The social aspect was the disorder since it is based off feelings and words and therefore has no cure.  The social interactions can only be improved.  Isolation is then needed to recharge the batteries since social interaction can be very tiring even for the most normal thinking people.

The social aspect is really where a person can make themselves feel good.  Feeling good allows others to come in and feel good with you.  It is a vibe that you give off that makes people want to stay around.  If you are thinking too much in a social situation, you will give off a bad vibe.  People will tell you to “go with the flow.”  What they really mean by that is that you are thinking too much and worrying about any possible consequences to your actions/words/body language/etc.  What they want to see is a person that really doesn’t care.  The Aspie male’s problem here is that he cares too much.  The Aspie male is too self-conscious.  The Aspie male has a conflict going on in his mind.  The mind is interfering with his ability to feel.

You know, this doesn’t just apply to Aspergers Syndrome itself.  This applies to everyone.  Each and everyone of us always has these kind of issues.  The Aspergers mind likes to have you think for longer and prolong the conflict within.  This itself is the disease.  This is why we are supposed to be getting help.